the best summer ever; because of you.
My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.
whispers of summer
her story
friends
birdsongs
memories
sunrays
sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:
Monday, December 22, 2008
beyond comparison.
beyond comparison.well it started with the release of the psle results. my mum smsed me while i was at icyl that my brother got 262. to which i replied that i was very proud of him - who can say that 262 isn't a good score? so amanda (whose sister got 250) and i just spend the whole day at icyl being really high and proud of our siblings. wheee.but when i got home it was a different story - my mum was yelling at my brother for his 'bad' results. and she started comparing us again. which honestly just got me feeling indignant for my brother. okay, to be fair to my mum, she was right to say he could have done better. she was right to say he could have put in more effort to study. yes, he's too playful by nature, he doesn't really concentate well, but so what?at least he made an effort to study for his psle. at least he bothered to ask where his mistakes were. at least he managed to sit down and do entire math papers for 2+ hours when his concentration span's normally only an hour. compare that to me, when i never even studied. when i went home after sch/each paper and just slacked/read/did everything except study. (but no, doing homework doesn't count as studying, in case you're wondering.)true, he could have done better. but that definitely applies to me too, and more so than it applies to my brother, don't you think?it's a pity my mum only sees the 14 mark difference in our psle scores, and not the tremendous difference in the effort we put in to do well. it's a pity she only sees the difference in our academic results; that his are 'never as good' as mine, and not the difference in our other aspects of school life. someone remind me never to compare my kids like that next time, in case i (somehow) forget.because as much as i do better in exams, his cca record owns mine. he's already managed to represent nyps in 2 international competitions; he's even gotten the moe eagles award. which shows that his overall performance, not just his academic performance, is stellar already. compare that to me, when i never even went for a single zonal/national competition, much less international. oh, and he's received two edusave scholarships already (one for his p5 performance and another for psle) when i only had one for psle. who says he's nto as good as me - we just have our achievements in different areas. unfortunately for him, the typical singaporean mindset places academics above all else. sigh. but at least, thankfully he made it into hci. albeit via dsa, but who cares? i shall pray he uses this opportunity to tap on his strengths and improve his weaker areas (i.e. pick up on his academics and do even better for cca), like how i managed to save my cca record, (much as it was by luck, if you ask me,) and somehow barely maintain my gpas. although i think he'll outshine me there. at least. he sure has the potential to.on a side note, i'll need to buck up for the next two years too - i'm dropping phys (which i score better at) in favour of bio, much to my mum's chagrin, ra chem's going to add to my workload (but thank God i got in! :D), and econs is as of yet uncharted territory that i may find myself floundering in if it turns out that i have as much flair for econs as i do for social studies. and for ccas, my mum is against my joining dance (although i'm going to be terrible and go all out for it anyway, because dance is one of the few things i love insanely). but even then, i also have no idea how i'm going to get a good cca record if i take dance, seeing that i have practically zero experience there. unless i join writers' guild/alchemy club. but in any case, to choose only one of the two is going to be a most heartbreaking decision indeed. oh well.but whatever, really. i just hope i can do what i've set out for my brother myself - capitalise on those strengths and work on my weaknesses!so thank God he's in hci (really, there's nothing bad about his performance so far) and thank God for rachem; and where'd i put those econs books?---------oh before i forget, i shall just say that i've been perfectly fine these few days- but thankyou for asking if i'm okay anywayy(:you see, i'm just missing people. which is normal anyway, with your best friend overseas(: [yiting when are you coming backkkk; it seems like ages until i'll talk to you again!]not forgetting the fact that shinyi's phone is terribly wonky and delays the delivery of smses so ridiculously we gave up smsing entirely haha. oh well, things should be back to normal next year right xD 10:36 pm
Monday, December 22, 2008
beyond comparison. beyond comparison.well it started with the release of the psle results. my mum smsed me while i was at icyl that my brother got 262. to which i replied that i was very proud of him - who can say that 262 isn't a good score? so amanda (whose sister got 250) and i just spend the whole day at icyl being really high and proud of our siblings. wheee.but when i got home it was a different story - my mum was yelling at my brother for his 'bad' results. and she started comparing us again. which honestly just got me feeling indignant for my brother. okay, to be fair to my mum, she was right to say he could have done better. she was right to say he could have put in more effort to study. yes, he's too playful by nature, he doesn't really concentate well, but so what?at least he made an effort to study for his psle. at least he bothered to ask where his mistakes were. at least he managed to sit down and do entire math papers for 2+ hours when his concentration span's normally only an hour. compare that to me, when i never even studied. when i went home after sch/each paper and just slacked/read/did everything except study. (but no, doing homework doesn't count as studying, in case you're wondering.)true, he could have done better. but that definitely applies to me too, and more so than it applies to my brother, don't you think?it's a pity my mum only sees the 14 mark difference in our psle scores, and not the tremendous difference in the effort we put in to do well. it's a pity she only sees the difference in our academic results; that his are 'never as good' as mine, and not the difference in our other aspects of school life. someone remind me never to compare my kids like that next time, in case i (somehow) forget.because as much as i do better in exams, his cca record owns mine. he's already managed to represent nyps in 2 international competitions; he's even gotten the moe eagles award. which shows that his overall performance, not just his academic performance, is stellar already. compare that to me, when i never even went for a single zonal/national competition, much less international. oh, and he's received two edusave scholarships already (one for his p5 performance and another for psle) when i only had one for psle. who says he's nto as good as me - we just have our achievements in different areas. unfortunately for him, the typical singaporean mindset places academics above all else. sigh. but at least, thankfully he made it into hci. albeit via dsa, but who cares? i shall pray he uses this opportunity to tap on his strengths and improve his weaker areas (i.e. pick up on his academics and do even better for cca), like how i managed to save my cca record, (much as it was by luck, if you ask me,) and somehow barely maintain my gpas. although i think he'll outshine me there. at least. he sure has the potential to.on a side note, i'll need to buck up for the next two years too - i'm dropping phys (which i score better at) in favour of bio, much to my mum's chagrin, ra chem's going to add to my workload (but thank God i got in! :D), and econs is as of yet uncharted territory that i may find myself floundering in if it turns out that i have as much flair for econs as i do for social studies. and for ccas, my mum is against my joining dance (although i'm going to be terrible and go all out for it anyway, because dance is one of the few things i love insanely). but even then, i also have no idea how i'm going to get a good cca record if i take dance, seeing that i have practically zero experience there. unless i join writers' guild/alchemy club. but in any case, to choose only one of the two is going to be a most heartbreaking decision indeed. oh well.but whatever, really. i just hope i can do what i've set out for my brother myself - capitalise on those strengths and work on my weaknesses!so thank God he's in hci (really, there's nothing bad about his performance so far) and thank God for rachem; and where'd i put those econs books?---------oh before i forget, i shall just say that i've been perfectly fine these few days- but thankyou for asking if i'm okay anywayy(:you see, i'm just missing people. which is normal anyway, with your best friend overseas(: [yiting when are you coming backkkk; it seems like ages until i'll talk to you again!]not forgetting the fact that shinyi's phone is terribly wonky and delays the delivery of smses so ridiculously we gave up smsing entirely haha. oh well, things should be back to normal next year right xD
i'm just the girl in the corner, the girl with the wistful eyes;
jiaying
seventeen! but that'll change on 220910 xD
rafflesian
113'05, 210'06, 315'07, 415'08 10S03P!
redcrosser passed out;
tribunist [vchair yay :D] said farewell;
but i'll never forget those days(:
archer! :D
still a writer, yep.
save me...
absolutely deranged
chocoholic
shopaholic
complete psychotic
stress-hater
panicky [i'm serious.]
unfortunately, more often than not, a broken rose.
... before i drive myself mad.
je t'aime;
rgsrcy
tribune
rj archery!
writers' guild!
reading! xD
dancing <3!
singing
going on facebook and playing random games there HAHA
grand pianos [oh, nothing beats a grand!]
black; pink; chocolate brown :D
astronomy; knitting; archeryyy(:
pool; bridge; mahjong! xD
chemistry! [favourite subject (:]
needless to say, we must never leave out the two essences of life, chocolate and shopping! i can never do without
them hahaha(x
for all life is a dream, and dreams themselves are only dreams;
ra science nahh no chance alr. but nevermind(:
>3.6 gpa [HAHA YES I DID IT FOR SECTHREE!(:]
tribune chair vchair's good enough. and in any case, my term's over anyway.
>3.6 SECFOUR gpa! YES I DID IT AGAIN! :D
rj chem ra! thank God i got in! :D
or uwc nordic! didn't apply; decided that specialising in sciences was the wiser choice, given my inaptitude
for humanities ><
rj dance! street/intl also can :D :Dbut nevermind, because rj archery pwns all now!
not forgetting the typical wish for world peace, duh. (:
and i wish i could have him. or at least, if we're not meant to be, someone to love
and to love me back. &it's true that love ends up being a battlefield sometimes, but it's still love; blessed
love.
for we were meant to last forever;
i find my paradise when you look me in the eyes-
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